I, Chaim O’Deens, have grown up surrounded by the church being a PK, pastor’s kid. Because I was constantly raised and surrounded by the church atmosphere, I always wondered what the other side of life was all about. The darkness began to intrigue me gradually more and more in my later years of high school, where darkness deceivingly made “Fun” attractive. I slowly began to dabble into the dark, doing most all things this world has to offer as fulfillment. The world gives us choices and plenty of them. I chose poorly for a few years of my life and fell hard. I was drowning myself in the desires of the world; shame came out of the blue and covered me. As I was diving deeper and deeper into the dark blue, pressure began to build. I just wanted to burst. I was hidden in shame, putting on the persona of someone who had it together. Truth is I fell hard, fast and did not have it together. I was unaware at the time, but I was caught in between two worlds.
The reason why I am telling you this is because I was weak, but now I am strong, ALL thanks to a beautiful, selfless savior, who came to be my friend. He came to pick me up out of the deepest part I swam to. Unknowingly and unaware of what I was doing, I was swimming for fun, deeper and deeper, into my death; I was drowning myself, swimming away from any help. Shame and ignorance were holding me back from reaching out for His help, even when His hand was stretched out, barring the pain of the directed waves against Him and the pressure of the deep darkness I swam into, simply to pick me up, and resurface me where I could finally breathe. In my own ignorance, I kept swimming the wrong way to find this fulfillment and I swallowing death. All I had to do was turn around and put my hands up, kick harder than any fish, and let His grace pull me up!
I refused that friends hand countless times. I am here to tell you, you are not alone. There is someone, consistently reaching out His hand for you to pick you up… no matter how many times you choose to make yourself fall. There was a Savior for all that you have done, and all that will do! You have not fallen out of reach!
And guess what?! The best part is… that Savior that picked me up, can also pick you up! Now that I have thee Breathe of Life in me, I will dive and swim as long as He permits, all with a new purpose; I will swim to get your attention and point you the opposite way to the proper direction of that which you ignorantly seek!
I am here to tell you as much as He reveals to me and prayerfully and hopefully here to point you to Him where He will provide you strength and life! My soul cries out to Him every day and I pray and hope that yours will too ! He wants to be your friend; YOU ARE NOT ALONE! I will use this blog to write Crucial Truths about my Savior and the dark world that we are living in!